in fact, there is only one problem i have with these art/creation. i can't do it. i can't write or make up stories, my photography skills are null and void and drawing makes my head hurt. the idea of forming the vague, floating ideas i have in my head into anything physical/visible is one which sends me into panic mode, and i have endless admiration for those people who can sit down, in front of a blank canvas/word document/lump of clay, and just create.
of course, i realise that being artistic isn't plain sailing even for the most brilliant of minds. it takes practice, persistence, tears, giving up and starting over and often endless frustration. which is why i fall at the first hurdle when trying to create things: i am lazy. i have exciting ideas, but the minute i reach any kind of stumbling block (which could be anything from losing my gluestick to simply exhausting the possibilities of said idea), i give up. my wonderful idea now seems boring, irritating and useless, and i go back to appreciating what other people do.
a few months ago, i had a minor epiphany. i was sat, with my collection of fineliners trying desperately to draw something interesting. after about half an hour of drawing rough shapes and not settling on anything and feeling useless about it, i suddenly thought, but what on earth is wrong with not being able to create anything? why do i torture myself over trying to do something which i have much more fun watching other people do?
it was at that point that i coined the term 'serial appreciator' to describe myself, and actually anyone else like me who prefers to just surround themselves with beautiful things other people have made, rather than create themselves.
for a long time, i had loads of pages bookmarked which were calling for submissions for various different webzines. however i realised i was never ever going to make anything for any of them, because i can't.
so now I'm thinking, what if instead of failing to submit stuff, i could take advantage of my over-enthusiastic ability to collect/manage stuff and create my own site for other people to submit stuff to? maybe. i don't know if anyone would submit, or if i could create some kind of space which would be unique in what kind of thing people could submit. a zine for chronically shy people to express their deeper feelings in the form of art? something feminism based? a creative space for rabbit enthusiasts?
i don't know. the entire plan is still horribly vague in my mind, but if anyone would be interested in submitting something to a zine/website i ran, helping me run it, or even if you're looking for someone to help run/edit a publication, please feel free to contact me via email/commenting/carrier pigeon.